Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Ode to Time

Fall is always a time of reflection. Looking back on the year that has passed, thinking about where I was a year ago, dreaming about where I'll be a year from now.

I recently acquired a book of poetry by Pablo Neruda and came across this last night. I love it and think it is worth sharing with the 3 of you out there who still read my blog.

You may need to click on the image to read it, but it's worth it...trust me.

by Pablo Neruda

Saturday, August 15, 2009


It's been a long while since I've devoted time to my blog. Alas, kind readers, I've been busy here in Atlanta...working, teaching, freelance. Life with a "real" job takes up a lot of time. Time that could be used for painting or blogging. What I have realized about the working world is that it leaves very little time for exploration, learning, wandering. I do miss this. I miss the tangents that natural curiosity fueled by time and mental space allow one to go on. I miss the hours of studio time that gave way creative discovery. I feel pressed to go quickly, to get things done...faster, faster, faster. Time for error, time for accidents that can take us down new and exciting roads is not built into the day. Perhaps some artists and creative people do not need this sort of time but, for me, I've always needed time. Warm-up. Jumping into a painting cold...never a good idea. I realize that creativity is a mind-set. It is not something you "do," it is something that you are. You cannot turn it on and turn it off when it is convenient. You have to live in the moments of inspiration and action. You have to be willing to drop everything and tune into that energy when it is upon you. Most importantly, you have to be open to it. It's rather magical in that way and frustrating, too. It is not something you can really control. So, perhaps, my goal is to get more fluid in my creativity. To make more time for it...to be open to it, to live more in the moment of it rather than try to schedule appointments with my painting wizard.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

Another New Blog.

So, clearly, I am heavily relying on friends and family to supplement my blog...today, I bring you my sister and her husband's blog. You can learn all about the joys of drinking scotch and eating corn as well as see adorable photos of my niece and nephew. All of these exciting activities take place in the megatropolis of Waco, Texas...a place known for dramatic Branch Dividian compound fires, Baylor University and some damn fine mexican food.

Maybe one day I'll return to the land of blogs and provide some original content. Until then, enjoy my family's and friend's food for thought!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Another New Blog.

Kind readers, today I bring you my dear friend, Jennifer's, blog. She is a wonderfully talented writer, painter, dog lover, tequila drinker, runner and poet--to name a few. She is also a new-to-the-blog-world-blogger. Enjoy. www.jenniferthink.blogspot.com

Thursday, May 07, 2009

worst. blogger. ever.

I know, I've been lame. No time for blogging due to an over-loaded schedule and, to add insult to injury, I am posting "leveraged" material that I found in the drafts folder of my e-mail account. I have no idea where this little nugget came from, but I loved it so much I decided to use it as fodder for my almost-3-months-after-my-last-post blog post. So....here goes....and if anyone knows where this came from, let me know.

"It doesn't seem fair that we can look back and connect the dots in life, and see what led from that to this, but we cannot look forward and anticipate in any way what constellation today's dots will form in the vast space ahead of us. I guess it's just best to assume that heaven is right here, right now, and let the stars fall where they may." --author unknown.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

New Blog.

As you all know, I love food. I also love blogs. I have a new blog for you all to enjoy and it has the best. name. ever. "Barn Appetit." It is a blog about cooking, food, recipes and life on the farm. There is also Crema De Limoncello recipe that I am going to make VERY SOON.

Thursday, February 12, 2009


I think, mostly, we all kind of wander through our lives slightly tuned out to a LOT of what is going on. There are, perhaps, a myriad of reasons for doing so....we are afraid, we are comfortable, we don't know any other way to live. It's hard to be present. It's hard to live in the now. As Marshall McLuhan suggests, "We look at the present through a rear-view mirror. We march backwards into the future." Living in the now requires peace with one's past, hope for the future (without any attachment to possible outcomes) and a focus on the here and now. I don't know that I have ever been completely present in my life. I have mostly been distracted by anticipation over what is to come or angst over what has passed. Until now. Something shifted in my life several months ago. And, for--maybe the first time in my life--I am truly present. It's the best I have ever felt about my life.

The Buddhists say that all suffering comes from attachment. Attachment to physical things, and attachment to feelings and outcomes. Attachment to a future possibility or a past regret. Never before have I understood the simplicity of this concept. That said, the more I understand it, the more I understand that simplicity is anything but easy. Simplicity requires mental and emotional discipline. I'm not certain I have completely gotten the hang of this practice of discipline, but I'm well on my way...and I am relatively certain that it may be the key to sustained happiness in life.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Poetry Friday.

Okay, so I have been told by colleagues that the sophisticated poet may not care for the writings of Billy Collins. Having several poet friends, I hesitate to show my unworldliness, but I really like this poem that I read yesterday and I'm going to share it with you all in hopes that I am not judged a literary simpleton. Enjoy.

Adage - Billy Collins

When it’s late at night and branches
are banging against the windows,
you might think that love is just a matter

of leaping out of the frying pan of yourself
into the fire of someone else,
but it’s a little more complicated than that.

It’s more like trading the two birds
who might be hiding in that bush
for the one you are not holding in your hand.

A wise man once said that love
was like forcing a horse to drink
but then everyone stopped thinking of him as wise.

Let us be clear about something.
Love is not as simple as getting up
on the wrong side of the bed wearing the emperor’s clothes.

No, it’s more like the way the pen
feels after it has defeated the sword.
It’s a little like the penny saved or the nine dropped stitches.

You look at me through the halo of the last candle
and tell me love is an ill wind
that has no turning, a road that blows no good,

but I am here to remind you,
as our shadows tremble on the walls,
that love is the early bird who is better late than never.

Sunday, February 01, 2009

Ranier Maria Rilke.

I was reading the oh-so-intellectual publication Marie Claire the other day while getting the oil changed in my car and I read an interview with Renee Zellweger. She quoted Ranier Maria Rilke, a german poet, on the notion of what a "good marriage is" and I thought it so lovely, true and worthy of sharing: "A good marriage is that in which each appoints the other guardian of his solitude."

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Shameless Promotion of Others.

Today, I bring you 2 new blogs that I think are pretty awesome. Both have food-centric content. I love food...all food...any food. There is not much I would not eat at least once. I love to cook, too. I will try to cook most anything, but I am not that into baking. There is something about the letting go of baking that I cannot get comfortable with. I like to tinker and adjust and add and taste and modify right until the moment that the food hits the plate. Baking requires a sort of cooking-faith I have not yet cultivated. But these ladies have something far more interesting to say about food and cooking than I do, so check them out:

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Nieces are Nice.

Today is my niece's 4th birthday and I love her. She does not make me want to re-think my decision not to pro-create, but she does make me enormously happy that my sister and her husband did make the decision to pro-create...twice. I made this little video for her because she lives in Texas and I do not...I think I am going to do it every year from here on out. When she gets married, I think it will be a nice video-montage that will embarrass both her and me tremendously. So, today, I am grateful for 4 year old nieces named Anna who are sweet, cuddly and magical.

Monday, January 19, 2009

January 19, 2009

Today I am grateful for the present. The past is done, the future is yet to be determined, but we do have the here and now...and I am satisfied. Hopeful looking forward, at peace looking in the rearview mirror but fully vested in right now.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

catching up....

Well, clearly, I have dropped the ball on my daily affirmations of gratification. So, today am grateful that no one has sent me hate mail or thrown fruit at me on facebook. I am also grateful for my dogs...they are faithful, loyal and patient companions and I love them dearly.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

25 things.

I am stealing Audrey's latest blog idea and rocking it, Mary style.

Here are 25 random things about me.

1. I love peanut butter more than any food product on the face of the earth.

2. I love cheese almost as much as I love peanut butter

3. I carry tweezers in my car to pluck my eyebrows at red lights

4. I've been journaling since high school and keep all of my journals

5. I have a scar on my shin that I got when I was 11 and fell in a hole on the playground

6. I point my fingers when I attempt to dance...my sister does, too...we believe it is genetic

7. I collect dictionaries and thesaurai

8. One day I will live in a house I design on a moderate plot of land somewhere beautiful where I can have many dogs

9. I have only gotten sick once from drinking too much. It was gin.

10. It took me about 5 years to be able to drink gin again.

11. I have probably seen every Law and Order, at least twice.

12. I love my dogs more than words can say.

13. I always watch when I get blood taken.

14. I have never played on a team.

15. I love wearing hats.

16. I do not regret any part of my past.

17. I enjoy talking to strangers.

18. I don't use paintbrushes when I paint...I use my hands.

19. I used to hate my freckles.

20. I love mornings.

21. I am uncomfortable writing creatively.

22. I believe that life is fair and people are basically good.

23. I value freedom over security.

24. I am ridiculously optimistic.

25. I love my life more right now than I ever have.

Monday, January 12, 2009

January 12, 2009

Tonight I am thankful for my ability to be honest with the people I love in this world...I used to be so afraid to say what I feel.

This Blows.

Kind readers, I urge you to support my friend, Jennifer, in her efforts to ban gas-powered, noise polluting, over-the-top, obnoxious leaf blowers.

Friday, January 09, 2009

January 8, 2009

Tonight I am grateful for weathered hands, strong minds and the warm love of friends.

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

January 7, 2009

Today I am grateful that I have enough courage do things I am afraid of, to take risks and to go outside of my comfort zone because, quite simply, I want to grow and I insist on living my life without regrets. I have always been stubborn, strong willed and independent; it is both endearing and maddening to those who love me. I know this. I know these traits have caused pain to people who love me because I might seem reckless, dangerous and misguided. I simply cannot help it. It is who I am.

Monday, January 05, 2009


(Oliver is the handsome tabby on the left)

Today I am grateful for the love and prayers that my friends and family have extended to me and to my Kitty, Oliver. Oliver is 8, has been suffering with an unknown illness for the past 2 years and it has finally gotten to the point where I have to put him down. It is the worst thing to make this decision but even worse is to see an innocent creature for whom I bear complete responsibility suffer. Please say some prayers at 9am tomorrow morning; I know he will be in a better place–I am grateful that he will no longer suffer...and he will be missed tremendously.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

January 3, 2009

Today I am grateful for my amazing friends, their ability to make me laugh until I almost pee on myself.

Saturday, January 03, 2009

January 2, 2009

Okay, don't get TOO mad...I see that it is 12:37am on the 3rd of January, but I am going to file this under January 2nd's "things to be grateful for"

Today, I am grateful for my amazing friends and family. I love them so dearly and am so grateful for all that I have learned from them about who I am, who I am not and how to be in this world. Thank you.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

January 1, 2009

Today, I decided that I would attempt to BLOG the things that, daily, I am thankful for. We'll see how long this lasts, but I am really going to try to do it. Please feel free to scold me, throw a chicken at me on facebook, or send hate mail if I fail to post.

Today I am thankful for the opportunity to begin anew and vitamin-enriched peanut butter.